I just want to see who is still around.
Love ya'll!
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I've been cleaning up a lot of things, and now it's at that point where I'm going to clean up my friends list. If you're a bro, please comment here and I'll keep you on my list!
I just want to see who is still around.
Love ya'll!
I just want to see who is still around.
Love ya'll!
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Guess Who's Back?
4 min read
Back again.
Azzie's back.
Tell a friend.
Wow has it really almost been a year? That went by... fast?
Anyway, after many months of healing, self discovery, and moving forward, I finally feel confident enough to come back to my much treasured deviantart account.
I considered deleting it but this account holds a lot of personal and precious memories for me. Art is who I am, and this is where I collect and publish my art. I can't get rid of that.
So I've made some changes to help me move forward. Changed the username, the layout, the gallery folders. With these new changes has come a new Azzie. I'm a better person than I was before. I'm stronger, happier, and more confident and independent than ever.
So here is the new and improved me!
<-- Thank you all of you for your continued support and kindness. Ya'll are the best. :bademoticon:
By the way, this absolutely awesome journal skin was made by
Thankies!! >w<
Azzie's back.
Tell a friend.
Wow has it really almost been a year? That went by... fast?
Anyway, after many months of healing, self discovery, and moving forward, I finally feel confident enough to come back to my much treasured deviantart account.
I considered deleting it but this account holds a lot of personal and precious memories for me. Art is who I am, and this is where I collect and publish my art. I can't get rid of that.
So I've made some changes to help me move forward. Changed the username, the layout, the gallery folders. With these new changes has come a new Azzie. I'm a better person than I was before. I'm stronger, happier, and more confident and independent than ever.
So here is the new and improved me!
<-- Thank you all of you for your continued support and kindness. Ya'll are the best. :bademoticon: By the way, this absolutely awesome journal skin was made by
Thankies!! >w<
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The Truth of the Matter is....
5 min read
I'm not okay. I'm really not.
I've hit the lowest low I've ever felt in my life. And that's saying something.
Oh is that saying something.
I think I'm going to take a break from deviantart.
In all of this sadness, I find that writing and drawing give me little comfort.
I will come back though. Because like I said, I will be okay.
I promise I'll be okay.
I've hit the lowest low I've ever felt in my life. And that's saying something.
Oh is that saying something.
I suffer from mental illness.
I suffer from major chronic depression to be precise.
And let me tell you, I suffer.
I suffer from major chronic depression to be precise.
And let me tell you, I suffer.
I know I'll be okay.
I'm getting help.
The hardest part is trying to pick up the pieces that were shattered by me when I wasn't on my medication.
God, that's so hard to say. It makes me sound crazy. I guess maybe I am.
But I don't feel crazy. I feel like a normal person who has a bad disease.
And this disease is causing me to lose a lot.
But I'm getting help.
I know I'll be okay.
The depression made me do something horrible. It made me try to end my life.
That wasn't me. That drastic act of desperation, I would never do that.
There are many things I would never do or say, but did because I literally was not in the right state of mind.
And I have so much regret for what I did. So much remorse.
I'm trying so hard to pick up the pieces.
Having mental illness causes me to second guess my emotions.
Is it normal to feel this way? Or is it just my depression again?
But I'm on good medication now.
It's like night and day between how I feel when I do or do not take it.
During this dark time, I've had so many people come to me to help me.
People have given me cards, paid for plane tickets to get home, sent me letters of support.
They've let me know that they love me.
I'm getting help.
The hardest part is trying to pick up the pieces that were shattered by me when I wasn't on my medication.
God, that's so hard to say. It makes me sound crazy. I guess maybe I am.
But I don't feel crazy. I feel like a normal person who has a bad disease.
And this disease is causing me to lose a lot.
But I'm getting help.
I know I'll be okay.
The depression made me do something horrible. It made me try to end my life.
That wasn't me. That drastic act of desperation, I would never do that.
There are many things I would never do or say, but did because I literally was not in the right state of mind.
And I have so much regret for what I did. So much remorse.
I'm trying so hard to pick up the pieces.
Having mental illness causes me to second guess my emotions.
Is it normal to feel this way? Or is it just my depression again?
But I'm on good medication now.
It's like night and day between how I feel when I do or do not take it.
During this dark time, I've had so many people come to me to help me.
People have given me cards, paid for plane tickets to get home, sent me letters of support.
They've let me know that they love me.
People I barely know have showed they care.
It's because of them that I know I will be okay.
It's because of them that I know I will be okay.
I think I'm going to take a break from deviantart.
In all of this sadness, I find that writing and drawing give me little comfort.
I will come back though. Because like I said, I will be okay.
I promise I'll be okay.
Because like I said, I have good medication and amazing friends and family who have not abandoned me.
And I promise I'll respond to all of my messages.
I'm sorry about the RP groups I'm in or that I help run.
But right now I just need to take a long break.
I'm not sure when I'll be back. But I will be back.
If you actually read all of this, it most likely means that you care.
And if you care, that means so much to me.
I have some really amazing friends on DA, and it's because of you guys that I plan to return.
I love you guys.
-Azzie
And I promise I'll respond to all of my messages.
I'm sorry about the RP groups I'm in or that I help run.
But right now I just need to take a long break.
I'm not sure when I'll be back. But I will be back.
If you actually read all of this, it most likely means that you care.
And if you care, that means so much to me.
I have some really amazing friends on DA, and it's because of you guys that I plan to return.
I love you guys.
-Azzie
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MyWeekThroughArt
2 min read
This was MyWeekThroughArt.
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A new journal will be updated at a later date with some explanation.
For now, it's up to personal interpretation.
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A new journal will be updated at a later date with some explanation.
For now, it's up to personal interpretation.
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April 2013 Updates + OC feature
8 min read
Wow time for the super late update! I'll just jump right into it. 
Azzie's Life Stuff:
Okay so the biggest news that happened in April (This actually happened in the begging of May but close enough) is that I quit my job again. I realized I wanted one last summer of freedom before I had to pack up and go to school. I don't regret the decision in the slightest, and I'm still making an income by my commissions, which are now selling for about $25 per drawing! I never thought that anyone would pay that much for my art, but I have a lot of really nice clients and I'm super thrilled about it! I even had one man give me a $15 tip!I don't mean to sound like I'm bragging, I'm just really happy that people actually are buying my artwork. ; u;
Oh, speaking of summer, it's coming really late where I live. I had to call in work three times to miss because of different blizzards we were having. In April Like seriously what the heck is with that? Even those of us who really love winter and snow were getting very tired of it. But now luckily signs of spring are starting to show. Grass is beginning to get green, leaves are blossoming in little bulbs, and we've been having the most lovely rain showers.
The last thing I'd like to mention is that I saw a psychic and she gave me the most amazing reading. I really hope it comes true, because the things she had to tell me were so wonderful! I've never been to a psychic and I know I don't believe in reincarnation or anything like that, but I just really really hope what she said comes true.
Art Stuff:
Headshot Giveaway
The super talented inezuu is giving away free headshots! Read more here:
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OC Feature:
RULES
1. I'll make a feature choosing my favourite oc of yours (only 15 people)
2. If you comment, please do the same in your journal, putting the tagger on in the first slot. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone!
1. Thelonious and Anna by
This was the couple that first caught my eyes and introduced me to NeipyPien's beautiful gallery! I have a thing for chubby girl/skinny guy pairingscoughcoughBOMcough. Even if these two don't last, I think they're wonderfully designed, with really unique and even possess unattractive features. Characters with at least some physical flaw really capture my attention and I think they're the best. They are the most real and speak the most to me. I'd highly recommend checking out NeipyPien's whole gallery.
2. Joel by by
Because he's such a cutie and he sounds like a total sweetheart to boot. I like how he's the playful and cheerful type to always brighten other people's days, and his design is adorable too! I really like his big blue eyes!
3. Bristol Jenkins and Korbin Brooks by
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It was way too hard to just chose one OC from Lackadizzy's gallery. So I chose two! First of all I went with Bristol because she is a total cutie-pie. I love characters that are honest and blunt, and her nerdiness is very endearing as well. Korbin I chose because he is a freaking babe. I mean look at him. Hawtie alert right there! I can't wait until she uploads the info on him, because I love him all ready!!!
4. Edahs by
Of course I'm going to be biased towards the first character I ever knew by Cyanonigiri, but Edahs is also my favorite because I pretty much love everything about him. I really like his design, from his crazy bedhead to his demon eyes. His personality is hilariously evil as well. He was always pestering my OC when the group we rped in was still open. Those were awesome times.
5. Potato by
He's so weird and quirky I'm sorry but I can't help and love him. >u<
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